Walking contradiction.

5th November 2011

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Kumusta love life?

khadx097:

• Eto parang yung mukha mo, pangit.
• Parang ikaw… parang ikaw nalang ang kulang.
• Parang Skyflakes, panay ang break.
• Postponed ‘til further notice. Uploads will be posted once available.
• Parang ako, maganda.
• Parang batang me sakit, walang gana.
• Parang newsfeed ng Facebook, boring.

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5th November 2011

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Scared.

What are you afraid of?

This question came to mind while I was contemplating on whether I’d watch that Dvd of Paranormal Activity 3 that has been sitting on my desk since Halloween. I wanted my cousin to watch it with me, just like we did two years ago.. We watched the very first installment on the midnight of October 31st :) I knew he was scared, he didn’t want to get out of my room after that. Haha.

I planned to watch it this afternoon, so that it wouldn’t be too scary but I had to help around the house. Night came and I told myself.. I’ve got to watch this. Man up!! You’ve been wanting to watch that eversince, why are you holding back?

I answered myself back.. I am scared. 

I am scared of watching that movie alone and having the urge to empty my bladder in the wee hours of the morning and being too scared to come out, hold it in and have urinary tract infection (Okay, that was too much lol)

I am scared of.. a lot of things. I never saw myself as somebody brave.

I’m scared of giving myself away for I don’t want to get hurt anymore.

I am scared of the future. Of not being able to prove myself.

I’m scared of marriage. It just felt serious and quite frankly I don’t believe in forever anymore. I wanted to, but.. ugh.

I’m scared of not knowing who I am, fully. 

I’m scared of flying cockroaches and huge rats and their beady eyes.

I’m scared of heights, crowded places and drowning.

I’m scared of having diabetes since my grandmother and my uncle has it.

I’m scared of not being loved.

I’m scared of being alone.

I’m scared of not being enough.

I’m scared of going to bed night after night and letting all these thoughts consume me.

Now..

Would you like to watch Paranormal Activity with me?

Good morning.

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